Fear of the Wild.

Its a Sunday night, and I cant help but feel a little sad, a little hopeless. Sometimes its so hard for me to grasp this life and it leaves me tired. I know God has it under control and what I can see is only apart of the big picture, but as of now, I am dying to see the full image, dying to see what is ahead. I feel like every time I take a step forward I get pushed two steps back. I saw the movie "Where the Wild Things Are" last night. It was probably one of the most beautiful films I have ever seen. Its about adventure, the desire to be loved and the thirst for something more in this life. Its about how fear gets in the way of it all. I found that I could relate to Max a lot. Longing to be loved and accepted. Hating the change that happens when day breaks. Starving for adventure. When Max runs away, he escapes to a land where beasts run wild. A place where loneliness is all they know. Because he knew what it felt to be lonely, he took it upon himself to change it. He decides to change it to "a place where only the things you want to happen, would happen." Its not until after they start building this imaginary place they realize what they are looking for. They are looking for love. They are looking for acceptance. Which doesn't come in tall towers or underground tunnels. It came to them when they would sleep all together in a pile. It was that warmth that made the sun come out. That love that made everything okay, even when it wasn't. When Max realizes this, he decides he needs to go home. He leaves the island and travels home to his mother. Who, isn't mad. But Max is able to see her fear, to understand it. He hugs her, and for once it seems as though she understands him.

Its not what you have or where you are, but its who you love and how you treat them.

I think sometimes what we have to realize is that there is no such thing as a place where everything we want to happen will happen. As a matter of fact, sometimes God lets the things that we DONT want to happen, happen because of the bigger picture. Things wont always go the way we want them to. Pain is something that is a constant current pushing us along. But its in that we find something beautiful. Its in that we are able to see the pain and suffering of others. Its in that loneliness we are able to encounter God.

In the movie, they talk about the sun burning out. For as long as love is our driving force, the sun will never fade.

I feel sad tonight, but I know that its just apart of this big adventure.