Sometimes She Dreams The Most Beautiful Dreams.

So, once again God played the right song at the right time. I was driving home from the eye doctor this morning and the rain was pouring down, literally and metaphorically. I watched the light in front of me change from green to yellow to red. I stopped and watched the rain drops disperse on my windshield. Right when they landed from the sky they bounced off each other and slipped down, as if they knew something that I didn't. The light changed, and with that a song started. "Magnificent Obsession" by Steven Curtis Chapman played through the rain and cut deeply into my heart.

Lord, You know how much
I want to know so much
In the way of answers and explanations
I have cried and prayed
And still I seem to stay
In the middle of life’s complications
All this pursuing leaves me feeling like I’m chasing down the wind
But now it’s brought me back to You
And I can see again

This is everything I want
This is everything I need
I want this to be my one consuming passion
Everything my heart desires
Lord, I want it all to be for You, Jesus
Be my magnificent obsession

So capture my heart again
Take me to depths I’ve never been
Into the riches of Your grace and Your mercy
Return me to the cross
And let me be completely lost
In the wonder of the love
That You’ve shown me
Cut through these chains that tie me down to so many lesser things
Let all my dreams fall to the ground
Until this one remains

You are everything I want
You are everything I need
I want You to be my one consuming passion
Everything my heart desires
Lord, I want it all to be for You
I want it all to be for You

You are everything I want
And You are everything I need
Lord, You are all my heart desires
You are everything to me

Within the first 30 seconds, I found myself with chills everywhere. This song is my prayer. I have been so afraid of everything slipping away lately, I forgot about the One who gave it all to me. I have been so caught up in trying to control my dreams, that I took them from His hands. I have been chasing the wind for so long, I am finally back into the Light of His shadow. If  He is all that I desire, than why should I worry about anything else? He will figure out all the complications if I am kneeling at His throne. I tend to obsess about things. It doesn't matter what, but once I get something stuck in my head, it's like I have a repeat button in my head that is always on. But here is a thought, what if I let the uncertainty go, and just obsessed about Him. What if I had a repeat of Him going on and on in my head and on my heart. "Cut through these chains that tie me down to so many lesser things. let all my dreams fall to the ground

until this one remains." Woah. That hit me hard. If I let all my dreams fall to His feet, what would I need to worry about? He can handle them better than I can, and then my eyes will only be focused on Him and His majesty. 

I have been so afraid lately, because I have been holding onto my dreams so tightly. But I think to gain, I need to let go. I need to let go of each of them, put them at His feet, and keep His words of love on repeat in my head. Until only one dream remains, and that is Him. Everything else He will sort through, but He is dying to be my "magnificent obsession". He DID die so that we would give Him everything. 

But what if He wants something a little different, something a little more. Instead of "giving" Him everything, what if we made Him everything in our lives. 

Be my Magnificent Obsession.